I always believed in fate. If it is meant to be, it will happened. Just that you need to grasp the opportunity with both hands. This explains why most of the time I always be busy doing some weird stuff at weird timing.
As the time for graduation grows nearer, I feel a sense of apprehension. Especially at this critical time where everybody around the world is not getting a job. Why my fate help me? What am I suppose to do? I seem to be walking around blindfolded. Feeling my ways around each corner, each bend, hoping I dont fall into a pit hole.
I feel very insecure out of the sudden. No job, no life. Just nua.
Just nua.
Time waits for no one (quote from "The girl who leap through time")
For those that knew, I went back Singapore for 4 days recently for my grandmother's funeral. Even though I never was very close to her (im closer to my paternal grandmother), it was still rather sad and I knew I had to fly back to pay my respects to her. Meanwhile, I will provide support to my mom and to her family.
My big sis called me and told me not to go back on the day itself. I even had apprehensions before I fly back but I guess after it all, it was a good choice to go back. There are somethings in life you have to be there for. Its the chinese way.
The funeral was less devastating than my grandfather's one. I guess after it all, it is more peaceful for my grandmother to pass on like this. She had been suffering from a stroke for the past 3 years and has grown increasingly weaker. In the end, I guess it is for the better.
My 2nd sis has been feeling abit depressed recently. Among the kids, she was the one closer to my maternal grandmother. To me, a person that cant converse in teowchew, I always kinna found her a little irritating. I just couldnt hold a conversation with her. Guess I am the kantan black sheep of the family.
All this has led me to question my sense of worth. I dunnoe the link but recently I been very lethargic. I dunnoe what I want to do in life. To be successful? To be a family man? What matters in the end? I feel damn useless.
Ah. There it is. Another post of just me me me and me.
I know Im damn slow. But I like this song quite alot. It has been playing my head recently. I swear its because I just talked to Glenn about karaoke. :P
Oh no, I see, A spider web is tangled up with me, And I lost my head, The thought of all the stupid things I said, Oh no whats this? A spider web, and Im caught in the middle, So I turned to run, The thought of all the stupid things Ive done,
I never meant to cause you trouble, And I never meant to do you wrong, And i, well if I ever caused you trouble, Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.
Oh no I see, A spider web and its me in the middle, So I twist and turn, Here I am in my little bubble,
Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble, I never meant to do you wrong, And i, well if I ever caused you trouble, Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.
They spun a web for me, They spun a web for me, They spun a web for me.
____________________________________________________________________ I always liked this song.
